I am not taking the time to post pictures here today, I will tomorrow. I just wanted to write some things down.
So days 6 and 7 you were gone we got to communicate often. Not a whole lot happened that you didn't know about. That was nice. I felt connected.
But today was D day. Today you headed to Dillingham and I knew communication would be minimal. What was getting me through was knowing that at night, most nights hopefully, we could Skype and I could see your face. And the boys too of course. But that's not exactly the case is it?
So I had to work today and we had a rushing-around-running-late kind of morning. I was up late Skyping with you the night before. It was like our last hoorah before we wouldn't get to as much. I was okay with that. Work was fine, Sam and Jack had fun. I had ordered some photo prints from Walmart to put together the boy's little daddy photo albums so I needed to pick those up after work. When we finally left it was so close to lunch time, I thought, well let's get lunch. I didn't want to do fast food and I knew Denny's was right there. I thought, okay, I can handle a little lunch date alone with both boys. BOY WAS I WRONG. There were claw toy machines in there that Jackson was checking out but when our table was ready he did not want to leave. So I had to take a screaming toddler to our table and block him in the booth while he threw a major fit. I was so embarrassed and frustrated. Then I checked my email and it went downhill after that.
I learned that you couldn't Skype or download videos or even stream Netflix where you're at. What is the point of wifi if you can't do any of the great things wifi has to offer?! Anyways, it was all too much and took everything in me not to start bawling right then and there. I was so upset. Then Jackson needed to go potty, and I had to take Sam too making it all the more difficult, then our food came and he needed to poop, once again, pain in the butt. Figures. I quickly realized this was the worst idea I'd had in a long time. Jackson insisted on getting a salad and grapes. He ate the grapes. Sam wouldn't eat the chicken nuggets and ate some grapes. I scarfed my chicken sandwich as fast as I could and our table was a disaster. It was a bad experience, and I don't plan on taking them out alone again any time soon. That made me miss you, A LOT.
Then after lunch we still had to go in the store, God help me. It was hectic but not too terrible.
Finally we got home and both boys were passed out. I put Sammy in bed no problem, he was fine. Jackson freaked out and then never took a nap, lovely.
Then I spent my afternoon researching mobile hotspots, prepaid GCI phone plans and other ways we could stay in touch. I think it might be possible after all. But I'm not really sure.
I will admit, today was a bad day. It was a hard day. A day I wish I could've heard your voice. I just keep praying you can borrow somebody's phone and call. I keep my phone attached to my hip and check my email constantly.
It's like I'm grieving our communication we had the past week. I knew it would be less, I did. I just thought we would have Skype.
I better get going. Dinner is here. I had Encanto Grill deliver. They are my lifesaver. Spaghetti and ravioli for dinner tonight.
I hope your first day went well and I look forward to hearing all about it one way or another. I will try and blog daily on the boys with pictures so you don't miss anything.
We love and miss you!!!!!
8 days down, 57 to go!
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